God's children

hihi...

exams over le... today went bk to sch for chi listeing... was ok la...

well.. these few days have been thinking alot...

thinking abt:-

my christian life...
i can just at my table and stare into space... and just scream out to god... i feel sooo empty inside... its like... something's missing... haven't been reading bible.. and only pray when i had prob... this is sooo bad... ahhh!!!! i don't know... well... i know is always there for mi and knocking on the doors to my heart... its time for mi to open it liao... bt something's stopping mi... i don;t know wad... lord... pls gt it away!!! in the power of ur holy blood... AMEN!!! must go read bible and start my life afresh agian... i wanna be reborn agian!!!

my studies...
exams just finished... well.. heard tt i failed my chem paper 1 le... haiz haiz haix... bt mi still believing tt god will ans my prayers and keeping the faith... committing allllll papers to my mightly lord's hand...

my dance life...
i love dancing!!! my dance shoe spoil le.... really love it... i might nt be a gd dancer bt i just wanna use this life of mine to dance for god... of course... i will only dance for life if its god will.. i just wanna do god's will... i just wanna use tis tiny tiny lousy talent of mine to just serve god in dance.... hoping to simply shine for him on stage in dance... i wanna learn ballroom dancing.. i just love it when a couple can just dance and move gracefully on the ballroom floor... seeing how each other respect each others sex and body... and of course to learn my church tamborine dance... hehex... sorri to scare those wonderful dancers in cp... hehex...
bt... bt... mummy and daddy is like totaly agianst it... i am really serious abt learning dance...i know tt time i said i wanna learn piano bt learn half way jiu give up le... bt i really don't have tt tiny tiny lousy talent in musical instrutment.... sorri to waste ur mony.. sorri... mummy always say wanna learn this learn tt bt didn't.... mi is serious abt learning dance... i found my joy in dance... just moving a few steps will make mi happy... if god really wan mi to do dance... mummy.. let mi go... lord... use mi...

my love life...
hehex... wad love life will i have??? hehex... i just he's sad now bahx... bt i oso can't do anything... only to pray tt he will be happy bahx... be happy k??? there's no such flame tt cannot be ceased... UR DUTY IS TO UR HEART...
watched Mulan 2 ytd... well... it's abt being together wif someone u like... do nt care abt all barriers.. there's no difference tt's tooooo different...
the story is abt mulan, her bf(shang???) and 3 soldiers.. they nd to do a mission.. tt's to asccort 3 princess to other kingdom to gt married... an arranged marriage... bt on the way... the princesses fell in love wif the soldiers... so one princess asked mulan... "ur duty is to stay at home to do housework" "bt ur heart told u to take over ur dad's place to go for war" "so how did u decide over duty and heart???" Mulan answered "my duty is to my heart"...
well... all of us have a duty and a heart...do something which u will nv regret... do it to ur benefit... of coruse... we nd god to guide our heart to do thing which is according to his will... and of course tt will of our wonderful god is the best... so follow ur heart...

love ya lots ppl... muackx...
god bless...