Wednesday, May 28, 2008

i'm here to ask forgiveness frm God... for the past one wk.... i totally lost hope and faith in God... stepped into service and worship w/o the heart of worship... so wad if i did raised my hand in worship?? did i really worhsip him?? no... my heart was too down to be lifted up... totally fall bottom pit...

bt seriously, life with God is hard... bt life w/o God is harder... i totally experienced it by myself... i can't believe i was soo stupid to fall for the devil's trap.. can someone slap mi for tt?? coz of tt, i made my b*as, my pigu and those readin my blog worried.. how lousy can i get??

seriously, i'm scared to ask God for His forgiveness... i'm seriuosly dui bu qi Him... can i reaaly ask Him forgiveness??? i know i can... bt i got no face to ask lehx... but i really want to ask Him to forgive mi...

these few days w/o Him and soo many test and assignments... i can die man!!! totally screwed up lots of things... fm is forget it... ast is like AAAHHHHH!!!! still no child for mi for conversation which is due in 5 days!!! i seriously need His help, His wisdom, His presence, His strenght....

please continue to pray for mi.. tt i can break the barrier and ask my Lord for forgiveness...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 10:51:00 PM

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

hihi..

everyone knows it's not over... seriously, this is my prob... something tt i am struggling wif... really really got to do nth wif u... so sorry to make u all worried... i really appreciate those smses and msg... thanx.. bt i serioulsy still nd time...

actually i have been feelin this way since i don't know when.. just tt it reached the highest brim tt day... and is really not because of u.. so PLEASE do not feel bad or confused or wadever... it;s the struggle within myself... i oso don't know how to settle it... i'm sorry to say this, bt i don't feel like seeking the Lord abt this matter... please do pray for mi...


i don't wish to go into details wad triggered all these thoughts... and i am tellin no one.. so PLEASE don't ask mi.... bt trust mi is not abt u.. is just tt there are too many diff things add up and keep addin up...

just be yourself around mi... coz the more u feel tt there's something wrong.. the more awkward we will get and i really don't wan our friendship to turn tt way... i'm really sorry tt i made u confused... just tt ur timing abit the not good... sorry...

i will try to settle this out by myself for ur sake, for our friendship... just continue to pray for mi... and i seriously think tt this is part of the devil's doin.. and i'm fallin for his trick... and i'm sort of stuck there.. please please pray for mi....

so hope this post ans ur ques... be yourself, the one tt i love, and pray... i'm sure. for this prayer, God's ans will nv be no...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 10:12:00 PM

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hihi...

I'M BORED!!! someone save mi!!!now is fm lesson which means financial mangement which is boring which i'm prepared to fail!!! muahahax...

romei is on my right... and shu shu is on my left... and xinying is behind mi... and there's no one infront mi, i hope... hahax... and i'm using shu's lappy now...

BORED BORED BORED!!! romei's is yawing now at 9.40am.... shu is ACTING guai highlighting notes... now my tummy is growling.... sian!!! hahahahahx... now at 9.43, they just realised wad i had typed and are now banging mi left right and centre!!! i'm abused!!!1 muahahahax.... hahahax.... they are now fighting across mi using tt they abuse mi... now 9.43, they toking behind mi bk!!! SEE!!! who bully hu ah??? be my judge man!!! hahaax....

now romei complaint tt she having headache coz someone soooo stupid go slp straight after bathing...

9.45 am
shu: act guai.. RUBBISH!!
romei: *yawns* *whine**stretch*

9.46am
both shu and romei staring at my com... hand signing don't know wad... only know how to do "love u and sorry" still wanna act pro... CHEY!!! hahahahx.... somemore don't know hu teach them how to do de lorx... hahax.... romei want to go toilet!!!

kk... cher toking abt test... 25%... must act guai le...

cher: muitl choice and fill in blanks... lecture 4-main ques on balance sheet... transfering acc and acc types... mkae sure it balances... 4 transactions.... FINISH!!!!

no time change colour... make do wif white bahx... hahhahx....

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 9:39:00 AM

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

i seriously seriously hate myself!!!!!!!!! y am i like this??!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 i really hate mi!!!!!!!!! i oso dont kow wad i wan!!!!!!!!!!!!11 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! iedifvuw8ghrisdkjnfhurweijkadjnfrhbuwjeiadsn y am i so sentistive??? y do i get jealous so easily?!!! WHY is my name spelled joyce??? WHY!!!!!!!! i really s**k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i son't like mi!!! i hate thie mi!!! can i just!!!!!!???????????!!!!!!!!!bduivgrwenjsbyfvudirjnehbjnifvudsjnybhuewijnohibuirrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


it's really not abt u... it's all abt mi!!!!!! i really don't blame u... i'm not pissed or angry wif u... bt wif myself.... just tt i hate myself too much to say anything... i won't throw u in the dustbin coz i loved u too much.... i still love u, bt not myself....

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 11:52:00 PM

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hihi..

this post will seriously be.. i don't know... i feel unloved, unwanted... i feel like dying and just leave thie world... all tt i used to have are all gone.... no one cares...no one bothers... no one wants mi... no one rems my name.... i'm just like a noone in everyone's eyes... no one loves mi... i hate myself... y can't i be like them??? i really really don't like myself.... there's nth abt mi tt anyone will wan to know more abt mi... not pretty, not nice, always bullys ppl.... i... i... can someone just allow mi to feel loved?? can someone just make mi feel important?? can someone not treat mi like a sparetyre for once??? wad if i lock myself in one corner one day, will anyone even bother to open the lock.... how can anyone love mi if i don't myself... i really realy sick of myself.... no one gived mi the attention anymore... NO ONE really noone... myheart is crying out will anyone even bother to wipe the tears??? everything is so fake??/ how can i trust anyone to say wad they really think of mi... i wan my old life bk!!! please don't ask mi y i'm feelin this way coz i'm not goin to say... and i'm tellin noone the reason... just get lost!!sorry b*a tt i'm feelin this way...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 11:01:00 PM

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Monday, May 19, 2008

hihi...

suddenly my heart is aching... reading his nick doesn't help... knowing more info even doesn't help either... bt wad to do??? lucky i didn't put in hopes to high... really thank God for tt... to think bk, God really knows wad's best... really thank God tt he had wadever happened in sabah, happen... or else, i won;t be so calm now... He knows best... TOTALLY!!!

kk... tt aside... today went treaking wif CF ppl... we walked frm macritchie to bukit timah hill there... we started our walk frm 11 all to 5 plus... only had a lunch break and a few 10 mins break... leg were killing lahx..

i walked wif romei, van and dawn... coz we same grp... had really nice and good talks and chats wif both van and dawn... really love it... really happy....really wanna thank God for providing mi wif this chance to bond closer to them... we talked abt ghost stories, foc and sabah stories...

we did shared abit abt the walk... romei said tt even though the walk is tough, we still preserved and carried on... she oso added on tt we continued coz we know we had a destination... just like our christian walk... it's tough bt we continued coz we know we have a destination which is to God... van oso added tt.... during the walk, we had fren's company to support and chat wif so not tt tough... if we walk along, it will be tougher.... it reminded mi tt, God is always wif us through our christian walk... God oso puts fren in our life... good or bad experience, both oso for his glory de... i praise God for tt...

after tt... we had worhsip and some sharing... manto requested tt share abt our family... tt's really new to us coz we had nv done it before... was quite an eye opener... coz it's my first time hearing abt their family stuff...

went shopping at far east wif romei after tt... i know... we were crazy.. hahax... den went to tm to eat at mos burger... toked alot again.. hahax...

i realised tt walking such a long trail will not be prefect if there were no purpose... my strenght comes to finish the trail was coz i know i am walking for God not for the sake of walking... the whole treak was tiring but i find joy in doin coz i did it for my Lord...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 10:22:00 PM

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Sunday, May 18, 2008

hihi...

here to blog again...

today was quite a wonderful day... went for lunch wif church frens... got brian, hutch, nick, seth an dof course mei... very long nv go lunch together le.... den went shoppin wif mei and brian... super shoick to hv a guy shoppin together lahx.. he helped mi take my bag and our books which we borrowed frn the library while we shop... hahax..

here are some outdates photos... yani just sent to mi de.... will not upload all coz of davio who showed his butt at the cam!!! SENORED!!! hahax..



this is how u spell C-R-E-W...

crew is good...



what craziness...

Crew plus GL


crew is cool!!!



CREW formal...

BAYEK!!!

we are strong!!

this is how u spell E-P-S-I-L-O-N...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 9:27:00 PM

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Saturday, May 17, 2008

hihi...

today is sat!!! at home... hahax... today super the hot man!!! sian!! supposed to meet romei bt she goin her grandma's place... she tell mi go... bt i shy so didn't go... played maple... i leveled up!!! muahahax.... FINALLY!!! hahax...

ytd gt a few things happen...

ytd shu and i went to help out in the donation for mymmar thingy... so we went round the sch to ask for donation... we went around wif a big red tin...
den gt 3 guys stalked her lehx.. hahax... super funny...
here is the story...
we were standing outside np-op... den gt 3 guys they were standing behind shu for quite awhile... den befoe they left, one of them went to put $1 into shu's tin... den his other fren said "y only put in one tin." den they laughed and walked away... after not long, shu and i walked off... den i turned behind... to my surprised, they were behind us... hahax... den i told shu tt "they are stalked you"... shu brushed it off and say "coincidence"... i bought her story lahx... den shu and i turned into one study corner, den the guys stopped in the middle of nowhere and started toking... when we walk, they oso walk... it happened twice... hahahx... super funny lahx... so i concluded tt they are stalking her.. hahaax....

saw dai seng ytd... coz he came bk to sch to hand in assignment... happy happy... bt i think he is the happiest... hehex...

den ytd, shu sent mi an email... i think it's nice... hehex..

quite emo de... will post a few sentence here... will try to translate a bit.... den eng won't bo so sentimental le....

i think tis part is meaningful... especially the last one...
愛上一ㄍ人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄一ㄍ人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎

珍惜身旁的每一ㄍ人..........不要等到失去了才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....
(loving someone...... is really sweet but makes someone hurt
giving up on someone....... really hurts and heartbroken
treasure every single loved ones....don't wait till u lost tt person den u regret coz it hurts)

i totally can relate to this man... i hv done all these le... coz i loveD him too much...
~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~

(coz i love u, so i let u go
coz i love u, so i don't wan to prob u
coz i love u, so i rather leave
coz i love u, so i forced myself to leave)

this one... mmm... i used to think this way... bt now not really le... bt i still wonder wad my funeral will be like... wad will be said of mi... will anyone miss mi???
如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?
(if i still love u, will u stay beside mi?

if i still care for u, will u even look at mi once?
do i hv to wait when i die den u will realised tt i'm gone?
do i hv to wait till i leave den u will realised how good i hv been to u?)

there's other part abt hu can be ur bf and hu can only be ur fren... GUYS!!! if u read this, don't fake to be one good bf ah... just be urself, coz girls will love the way u are... wif no pretense...;p

普通朋友:他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友:他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課
(fren: he will only tell u not to do ur work and go out to play.
bf: he will hurry u to do ur work and will wan to discuss ur work wif u.)

普通朋友:在你生病時,會講好話關心妳。
男朋友:在你生病時,他會關心到你很煩,而且逼你去看醫生
(fren: when u are sick, he will only say nice to show corncern.
bf: when u are sick, he will care for u till u gets fed-up and will also bring u to see a doc.)

普通朋友:他什麼事情都會配合著你,只要你高興。
男朋友:他會幫你辨別是非,但你會覺得他管太多。
(fren: wadever he does, is just to play along wif u to make u happy.
bf: he will tok lots of theories and u feel tt he cared too much.)

普通朋友:他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友:他只能給你保證,妳跟他在一起,他是最快樂的。
(fren: he will tell u tt he can give the biggest happiness.
bf: he can only promises u tt when u are wif him, he is the happiest.)

touching bahx... hahax... enjoy the mystery of love... don't rush to it... it will come when the time is rite... not pt forcin... if kanna forced, everyone will be hurt... i will wait for my rite guy and God's rite timing....

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 5:57:00 PM

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

hihi..

today posting abt sat things... hahax..

sat went to east coast park wif mummy, daddy, mei mei, ah boy and ah girl... had breakfast had went to try this kangroo jump thingy...

pics below.. look at the shoe tt i'm wearing... it's not a roller skate... is like can bounce de.... was fun lahx... good exercise.. it keeps u running... bt i;m having blisters at weird places... hahax...


den after tt... went to church.. coz gt pan xiu qiong... don't ask mi hu is she.. ask ur mum or grandma... they comfrim will know.... she is some famous singer tt came to share abt her testi... den popo wanna go... popo's fren oso came...was ok lahx.. sang lots of old songs tt i don't know... lucky gt jack... he was there so we two just keep smsin each other.. hahax...

went home after tt..

this past wk have been a bust wk for mi... now can slack abit...


trying to download maple story.. hahax.. i know old school le bt suddenly ppl tell mi to play... coz tt someone gt no one to pei him play... horx mr smelliness??? hahax... hv been trying for all my life man.... still trying to download... hahax...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 10:56:00 PM

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Friday, May 09, 2008

hihi..

i'm bored now... bt tired too... ah boy and ah girl suppose to come for the night de... bt they still not here... all slp le... so i cannot slp yet..

uploaded pic on wonderfulfaith.blogspot.com and on friendster le... plus no one tokin to mi online... boring... feel like doin work bt don't know where to start...

saw nettex at eunos mrt just now... happy happy.... updated each other abit on our live... miss them lots man... i will find one day and camp at tp to look out for sec and even pri sch frens... hahahx...

this wk is seriously a tired wk for mi... just couldn't slp well... don;'t know y.... very tired jiu shi lahx... hahax...

today sort of settled things.. bt not very detailed yet... hope he will be alright... i oso don't know wad he wants... just hope tt he will sort out his own feelins... even if i wan him, he oso gt no feel for mi lorx... so wad's the point rite?? just hope tt he knows tt i will still be there if he needs mi and tt i still love him as a fren... haix... worried worried... making my heart messy all over again... sianed... bt i will still stand firm.... no means no... nd God's strenght man...


*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 11:59:00 PM

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Sunday, May 04, 2008

hihi...


these are photos of mi only... hahax... super the cam whore... some can see my eye bag really clearly... bt all these gt make up de... my skin not tt good... hahax...




how can i not hv this?? hahax..

i miss u... i really do...:(


the memories of u and mi are ever so sweet...

woah!!! a monster!! or ghost??? hahax...


fat fat!!!


jiteng will call this "firece joyce" hahax...

please... hahax...
the end... hahax..











*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 2:07:00 AM

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hihi...

seriously sianed lahx... always like tt de... it goes up den down, up den down.. i abit the scare to sit this roller coaster le... my heart can't take it man... i shd hv remain it the same way... locked up and nv to touch again... y did i even unlock it for a while??? good thing tt i didn't open it big...
sian!!!! sian!!!! Lord ah!!! wad u wan mi to do??? let ur will be do Lord... my heart is breaking man... too hurt to continue walking...
one was lost and found and lost again... one is gone and over... one is a question mark... one is all over the place... one is to be looked at frm far...
SIANNED!!! Lord, pls safeguard my heart again...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 1:58:00 AM

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hihi...

just came bk frm a wedding dinner... as usual... PHOTOS!!! hhahx...


mi and handsome ah boy

mi and princessy ah girl...

ah boy playing game...

mi and my dearest mummy...


ah boy and ah girl as page boy and flower girl...

ah girl...


ah girl...

mi and mei mei...

still got lots more of my pics... hahax.... will upload soon...;p

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 1:08:00 AM

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Friday, May 02, 2008

hihi..

today is fri le... didn't update for one wk le...

wk is like tt lorx... not much...

only in wed... had cf... den gt special speaker hu lost his leg coz he jumped down frm 15th floor... he jumped coz he was on drugs... hahax... bt thanx GOd he didn't die...

den he said this...
"there is a piece of white clear paper.. but there is a small black dot at on the paper... will u look at tt dot or the other clean part of the paper??"

i think wad he say is true... such a big piece of paper... y do we look only at the small little dot???
it's hard... bt i will try to look at the white parts instead of tt small dot...

now mi fan.. not settled. don't know wad i wan.. wrong timing.. wrong feeling...

*(shine)* Jesus loves the little children 11:54:00 PM

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about me

i'm just a normal girl highly favoured by my Lord Jesus Christ

my name is Joyce Lim... studying in Ngee Ann Poly, Early Childhood

Jesus is my life and saviour.

the apple of my life

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