God's children

hihi...

mi very very long didn't blog le... actually decided to listen to melvin to stop using com and to stop blogging for awhile coz prelims and o levels coming le... hehex...

many things happened... happy and sad stuffs... many things to say... bt don't know where to start... sometimes i even wonder if anyone visits this blog...

decided to blog today coz i really feel there's a nd to...

i guess it's long enough... ididn't dare to blog abt tis coz i'm afriad tt things will gt worst... i don't deny tt there was little hatrated... i just can't seems to see the gd pts just the bad pts... i hv been avoiding tis problem.. thinking tt everything will just go well after awhile... maybe i took things for granted le...

in tis circumstances... i realised tt all of us r different.. some r more patient, some r more forgiving, some takes things seriously, some just play play, some can be sweet, some can be sour, some can just make u listen to him, some can just be treated like a "maid"... there r different ppl around.. god made us different... therefore there r love and friendship around... bt sometimes really don't take ppl around u for granted... all of ur r human beings wif feelings... we r here for yourself, nt for anyone... ppl do gt angry, ppl do gt fed-up, ppl do feel felt out... EVERYONE will feel tis way at different pt of times...

frankly speaking, i was at the verge of giving up.. prayed hard and asked God wad he wants mi to do... when i tot the ans was to let go, den a letter came... it stopped mi frm giving up... bt i know it might nt be the same anymore (still hoping tt it's nt true)... many ppl have been asking mi... hoping tt things will go fine... now, i finally understand the true meaning of "u nd 2 hands to clap"...

i may look fine when u r around.. bt to say the truth.. it hurts... really hurt... i really treasure tis friendship... it have been 4 yrs le... there was agruements.. yt there was secret sharing... there was unhappiness... yt there was happiness... in all agruments... i don't blame anyone... i just feel disappointed in myself... i'm God's princess... a princess to SHINE my father's love... yt i have those tots... i have been keeping my tears till i come before my Lord on sun... felt so helpless and silly...

and oso wanna thanx god for sending wonderful frenx to mi... and oso thanx to those hu hv been there... yana, ann, berwin, costllan, dong... thanx for ur company and ur support... i know it wasn't easy to be the middle person, yt u nv give up... i nv regret making frenx wif ANYONE.. coz i know whatever i needed anyone in any circumstances... THEY r always there...

most importantly... thru tis... i really learnt abt my Father's love... all this while, i chose nt to pray.. coz i felt guilty...i felt tt i have no rite to tok to my Father... i know he will forgive mi... bt i'm just too afriad to ask for forgivness... just tt day... really commited eveything into his hands and i was answered!!! don't worry abt how to face God... the only way to u can feel scare is nt to face Him... all because of his great love tt i can overcome all circumstances...because i know He's always beside mi... i am nt afriad... because i know i hv a mission to accomplised... i wan to live till tml... BECAUSE OF HIM... I LIVED!!! thank you my lord god...

to all... tc and god bles... jesus loves u...