God's children

hihi..

super long didn't post le.. hehex...

was lookin at the sabah pics' again while writin my reflection... really miss that place ALOT!!! the fun and joy tt we had... really don't wan to rem the unhappiness... Romei and i were toking abt sabah AGIAN on our way home.. seriously lehx... miss the times LOTS... really thank God for brining mi there... i realy learn alot alot...

so sorry... i still nd time to get over... my feelings now super super messy lahx... it's really hard to wait bt i'm trusting that God has the right plan for mi...

just on my way home... i suddenly felt like givin up and lousy... and somehow or another i conviced myself tt i am ugly and is some useless freak... even though i know i am wonderfully and fearfully made.. and i oso know that God still loves mi for hu i am.. bt i still can't stop thinkin the bad way... really sian le...:( i'm tired of waitin and don't know wad will happen... some may know the reason why i feel this way...

bt when i reached home, i read an email that joshua sent... really enlightening... it toks abt how God did't give up on a bamboo seed... and soon the bamboo seed grew the tallest in the shortest rate...

here is part of the story..

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?". "I would not quit on the bamboo and likewise I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said."The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both makethe forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return

."As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

AMEN!!!

really touched by this story... God has a plan for mi... i may not grow now bt soon i will rise in Jesus' name.. He has a purpose planned for every single one... and even when i'm struggling,he is growin seed... really hard bt i AM goin to abide and trust God. wad i say is really wad i feel.. not some feelings that i hv just to tell u abt God...

praise and thank GOd...;p