God's children

hihi..

mi emo again lahx.. i realised at least once a mth will go thru this phrase... sian can?? don't wan to tok abt it de... so blog lorx... be prepared to read some real emo post bahx...

mi now very messy.. don't knw where i'm standing now.. don't tell mi it's up my nose.. coz i know it;s really not there... real sian can?? i really don't like this feeling.. y can't i just love freely w/o getting any heartache?? mi now is holding my feelings... telling myself not to like him coz i know if i like him... i will hv another round of heartbreaks.. and i'm sian and tired of it le... i just want to love happily... it's hard.. real hard... it is soo much to ask??? when den will he come??? just how many ordeal do i hv to go thru again??? losing faith in myself... amos is telling mi to look into the mirror and all God wants is my ashamed love... i oso wan to reflect God's love.. bt it's not easy.. super not easy... really nd God to help mi and to lift mi up..

den again... i realised something... God scarificed soooo much... he scarificed His only son soo that we can go to Him... he had to bare the pain of seeing his son die for us when we don't even deserve it... and Jesus had to die for our sins.. He had to go thru ALL the insults... ALL the pain.. ALL the wacking and hitting so tt we can be free again... tt thru His death we can live again... God and Jesus loved us sooo much tt they both have to go thru sooo much pain... so is this pain tt i'm goin thru to repay their love?? well... think think.. maybe i shd... i will just hv to go thru ALL these years and more years to come de pain... thinkin abt wad God had scarificed for mi.. i can do it!!!

still.. i miss ahem ahem!!! really missing ahem ahem alot!! and i know only my bras know hu.. since like forever!!! everytime i am doing nth.. i misses ahem ahem.. super sian can???

ohoh.. photos of class gatherin WILL be on class blog.. and SUPA reunion photos WILL be uploaded on my blog soon... will try to upload them as soon as i can... btw, gt some pics tt ben took is on his wedsite.. go see if u can... http://benatyao.multiply.com/photos/album/6/SU_reunion_... hehex...