God's children

hahax.. just now joyce had a sudden feelin to just rant.. and i realised something... many times i have prayed to tell God to change hearts... bt it still reminds the same... bt now i realised... God has been wanting to be something... bt it is i hu keeps holding on, i am not commiting everything to the Lord was wad i have been praying.. many times, i wan this and i feel that this is the best for mi... so, unknowingly, i have not commit everything to the Lord...

ok.. this is so goin to hurt... yes, i feel the pain now... bt come on, joyce... this pain compared to the pain tt Jesus had suffered for u, He died on the cross for u, He gave up everything for u, He will humilated coz of u.. and coz of this SMALL pain, u refuse to just commit to Him??? is this REALLY the best for u?? think again?? ok. it might not be the best for mi... but, wad is the best for mi?? just how long more?? okies, i'm still struggling... *deep breathe*.. this is so not easy... JOYCE!! if u really wan to be happy, to do wad God wants, come on, YOU got to commit and let go... let God do the job.. u say, u wan to do God's will... bt u are stoppin urself, can u pls just let go?? and really commit to the Lord... just allow Him to flow... so wad if things does not go YOUR way???!! YOU got to trust tt God has something bigger and better for u.. and just have to hold onto this truth, you are His child, He wants and will provide the best for u.. rem, He knows, He will provide, just trust.. hard, i know... but just do it... u will see results... i dont know how long or when... bt trust mi... in His right timing.. He will provide and show u... joyce, jia you k?? God will always be wif u.. trust mi... hao... i will trust u... no... not only i WILL trust u... bt... I TRUST U, LORD!!! tt's it... the reborn of mi!! trust God... i dont know wad is best for myself, only God knows... I AM to let go of wad I wan, and seek wad GOD wants... Lord, i thank u, i still gt u...

k lahx.. i'm tired.. this wk is really a tiring wk for mi.. emotionally and physically drained.. attachement is killing mi.. bt i thank God for good attahment centre, mentors, teachers and ecperience... Lord, continue to guide mi.. let everthing tt i teach comes from you coz u are the best teacher ever... let everymaterials i do comes frm u... all the ideas ALL frm u Lord, coz i know with my own strenght, i am NOTHING.. like NOTHING... thank you Lord... Lord., i continue to commit my attachment thigns into ur hands... i pray and ask tt the devil willnot do things against u... Lord, give mi ur mercy and grace.. thank you Lord, for ur blood to cleanse mi... Lord, clean mi so i may be clean before u and the devil will flee frm mi... amen Lord...

thank you Lord.. amen Lord.. i love u Lord...